We’ve had a fairly busy summer. We managed to get some time away, and went to Italy for two weeks. It was hot, and humid at times, but we had a great time. Lots of pizza and pasta, and as we were in Sicily we saw some of the places where the Godfather had been filmed, which was cool.
My wife managed to do quite alot, but got tired very quickly. She has also started having more frequent dizzy spells, often leading to sickness. These have eased towards the end of the holidays, but we still need to be careful (https://mywifehascancer.blog/archives/879).
These bouts of sickness do limit life – we need to be thoughtful about what we do each day, and know that a busy day will have consequences the following day. Family planning takes on a whole new meaning! I dont think at times that folk without experience of this disease are aware of the impact. Even a good natured friend coming over to see her can leave her exhausted and worn out, unable to think, let alone talk when the evening comes round.
My daughter is off to University this week. She achieved the grades to study engineering at Cambridge (this girl can!), and whilst being extremely beyond proud, I and my wife are also sad at her leaving home. I’m not sure how life will be going forward, though I know family pizza nights will be missing her rolling out skills.
The two of us walked the Cancer Research SHINE nightwalk, completing a marathon last week. I was in bits from almost half way round, but was dragged through by her shear determination. Really pleased we did it, and managed to raise over £2,500 for an amazing charity. And despite the blisters, and what feels like a ligament injury, I am considering signing up for next years event!
Today is a Monday, and as always I realise I am not a fan (maybe I am Garfield deep down). I suffer bouts of wondering why I am doing this, when everything is so hard. I am trying to use meditation as a way to help my mental health. It is taking a time to get fully into it, and I have relapses, but can feel the benefit immediately after doing one. I use the Peloton App, as they have a whole variety of trainers and lengths. My self doubt and feelings of inadequacy can be controlled this way.
Stepping away from social media is another positive step I have taken. The cess pool of news on X was not good, and I now just check every other day or so, limiting my time on the app.
It feels like we have had a great final summer as a young family, and all is about to change as my daughter goes away. I am also sure that other changes will be coming – my wifes last scans again showed small progression, which is good news as they could be getting worse faster. I am always aware though that this is small steps towards the end.
Keeping Track
New music listened to:
- The Cure have released a new song ‘Alone’ – it sounds just like Disintegration, and is mighty fine.
- Pearl Jam – Dark Matter (Great album, lots of big rockers)
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